sigh...I HATE PEOPLE!!!

gah. I WAS having a relatively good day today...and then I don't know...now I'm mad and sad? I've come to the conclusion that I really HATE forums..and now i remember why I never joined them in the first place...geez. Such inconsiderate, ignorant, mean, rude people.=.=' Seriously, Asteria is the ONLY forum that has every been welcoming, nice, caring, etc. that i've seen. I got a PM saying " Hi. This your first PM warning.
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Please read the rules. " -_-' could they at least act like their nice??!? I mean on Asteria when people need to edit their posts...it's more like.."Hi. Sorry I had to delete your post on so and so thread because it was spam...^o^" You know what I mean?
It's not like the PMs are sent by robots, but actual people, actual feeling? I don't know. MAYBE I am overreacting. but I've been really sick and tired of people in general..I'm seriously about to slap people...>.< On lighter note, I'm really glad Bern, Hoi-san, and Sierra all passed preliminaries! Good luck guys! ^__^ GANBATTE!! ...I kinda wish i would pass too? Just so my day wouldn't end completely crappy...=.='

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Aww....XING is such a cute group~~~! ^___^

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I took a colorgenics test and this is what i got: some of it seems true...and yet some seems kinda random...=)

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

Life is okay...

My life has been okay lately...nothing really going on...I finished my BBB Project yesterday and it's on Asteria...^o^ go look at it! and since I have no life, and bern tagged me...=.= i shall do this survey:

PART 1: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Po (phoebe)
Date of birth : January 16, 1992
Current status : girlfriend of Kyuzo..ahaha. i've claimed him..=D
Eye colour : dark brown/black
Hair Colour : black
Righty or lefty : Righty
Zodiac sign : Capricorn

PART 2: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage : 100% Chinese
Your fear : NONE
Your weakness : noodles
Your perfect pizza : um..really cheesy, supreme

PART 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY & TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up : zzZZZzzz i want to sleep more...
Tomorrow : I will be presenting my project on Saudi Arabia
Your bedtime : 11:30 -12:30 am
Your most missed memory : green eggs and ham!

PART 4: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or coke : neither, but if forced to choose coke
Mc Donalds or burger king : Micky D's
Single or group dates : group
Adidas or nike : Adidas
Lipton tea or nestea : Nestea fo sho
Chocolate or vanilla : vanilla
Cappucino or coffee : neither...they both make me go crazy

PART 5: DO YOU...
Smoke : NOPE
Curse : nope

PART 6: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol : no
Gone to the mall : yea
Been on stage : yes I have
Eaten sushi : nope...T__T
Dyed your hair: nope...

PART 7: WHAT WERE YOU DOING..
1 minute ago : filling this out
1 hour ago : at the library
4 1/2 hours ago : hating orchestra
1 month ago : school
1 year ago : obsessing over TVXQ/Shinhwa/Kangta/Gazette/Dir en Grey/Gackt

PART 8: FINISH THE SENTENCE
i love : bern..hahaha ^o^
i feel : like pinching XING's Kevin's cheeks...=)
i hate : spoiled brats
i hide : from everyone
i miss : my family
i need : TVXQ to read my messages on my BBB Project...

PART 9: TAG 5 PEOPLE
1. Hoi-san
2. Yingling
3. Feli-chan
4. Tresa unni...
5. Kristi...if she ever reads this...

Freee!!...Ok, well sorta...xD (cont)

On lighter note, since Bern has recently been motivated to write her fanfics, I have been too. ^o^ I'm going to continue my fanfic and write out the fanfics that have been in my head. Be prepared to read my random weird stories. =) I'm going to create a blog for all my fanfics, so it'll be more organized. =D

Freee!!...Ok, well sorta...xD

I'm all done with my research paper. I just KNOW I got a bad grade on it. =.=' I didn't put much effort into it, so I guess I don't really care. xD As long as I still end up with an A at the end of the semester, I'll be ok. ^___^ About the projects...I've finally finished the 2nd Jib Project and it's mailed, but I doubt it will get to the one in charge of the project in time. Stupid mailmen left when I was going to mail it. So, it only got mailed today...T__T Good thing I made it nice and simple, if it was like my XING letter, I'd be thinking about it all day long. ....I'm still mad about that...-_-' I spent at least 5 hours doing the entire thing...I used my heart, mind and soul. hahaha. That's a nice song. ^o^ haha. ok...going back to what I was saying. The person in charge of the XING project never told me if she ever received it after the deadline or anything, so I've been pondering on it ever since I found out it didn't reach there in time. I sent it a week early when it was supposed to arrive in 4-6 days, and yet the person didn't receive it. I've come up with a gazillion different possibilities of why...1. Did I put the wrong address? 2. Did I not put enough stamps? 3. Did the one in charge not like it tear up into a million pieces? 4. Did the mailimen accidentally lose it? =( What's really confusing is that when mail is sent to wrong address, the postal service sends it back to the one who sent the mail in the first place. but it's been almost 2 months since I sent it....O.O; I just want to know where it is...can't I just be granted this one desire? >.<

T__T Mucho stressed out again...

Unfortunately, spring break is over. =.= I don't even consider it a break, I didn't get to rest or anything and I think I'm getting sick again. xD What a sucky life I have. I think I'll go jump off that cliff now. haha. just kidding. ^o^ I'm not suicidal...yet....Bah. Stupid school started again, and I already have BIG chapter tests in 3 of my classes. As if I'm not overworked already, not only do I have to finish my research paper that is impossible to concetrate on, but I have to catch up on all my Chinese homework, and do 2 projects. Urgh. I don't even want to talk about Chinese School. I wanted to work on my research paper instead of going, but my mom said i hadn't gone many times so she said I had to go at least for the 1st half of class. -_-' My teacher didn't even tell me last time I went to class for 1/2 the time that we we're going to have a test. So, I only knew half of the stuff on the test. Sheesh. Even though my Chinese was good enough for me to figure the last half, she should've at least told me....I completely freaked when she said we had a test. T__T Oh, and the two projects aren't for school. ^__^ One is the BBB Project in Asteria, that will reach TVXQ somehow and the other is the 2nd Jib Project for Shin Hyesung. =) I already know what I'm going to write...but I haven't had any time to even start on them. =.= hee hee. I'm also planning on doing the new project for XING member's birthday. And yes, I'm crazy doing so many projects at one time, but ever since the letter I wrote for the debuting project for XING failed to reach the one in charge of the project, I've been more determined than ever...AJA HWAITING GANBATTE!! to me and all my lovely friends. ^o^
P.S. Bern...O SMAP!!! =D